Hope springs eternal in the human breast;
Man never Is, but always To be blest:
The soul, uneasy and confin’d from home,
Rests and expatiates in a life to come.
An Essay on Man, Epistle I, 1733
Last week I had a doctor’s appointment…you know, the “girl doctor”. I haven’t been in about 4 years (I know, I know…shame on me!), and knew that it was way past time to go. Well…as it turns out she (the doc) found something…actually two somethings. I knew that I had a lump…I have had them before and they turned out to be not a big deal…but I wasn’t prepared for her to find two.
This week I went to Cleveland Clinic hospital in Weston (they are awesome!) and had a mammogram and an ultrasound done. I was so scared…I was sure (somewhere in the pit of my stomach) that it was probably nothing…BUT, the what ifs started to come, and they hit me hard Wednesday night. I thought…whoa…maybe this is why things have been turned upside down for me lately, what if it’s Breast Cancer, what if I waited too late to catch it, what if….
I have an appointment this coming week with a surgeon to review all the films, discuss my case, and go over everything, and I am sure that it will be ok…but I have to tell you…I did lose my HOPE for about a day.
I am sharing this, not for your sympathy, not for your “oh poor thing”, but to show you that it is ok to look away for a moment, but the trick is to look back and see where the HOPE comes from.
I love this verse…
Psalm 25:5 – guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.
I don’t know what you are going through, what stress, anxiety, pressure you are under right now, but I do know there is HOPE in the midst of any storm.
Please hear me ladies…guys, tell the women in your life…you need to go to the doctor, every year…I have learned from this, and intend to make sure that I tell every woman I know that it is not something to play around with. No, it’s not a fun appointment, I can think of a million things I would rather do, but you MUST make it a priority.
Go to the doc, get checked out, and follow up…it’s your life…take charge!